It is the little conversations that are answers from the Lord.

This week, I was watching "my boys". They were all playing so I picked up my Bible study and my journal and sat on the couch. After their game was done, Markus came over and sat next to me. He asked me "Are you writing to God again?" I told him that I was. He then asked "Does God ever answer you?" This, my friend, almost made me cry. Not because of his honest question but because of me pondering it and my awareness of God. I held back the tears and answered "Oh yes Markus, He has answered me quite a bit lately". "How?" was Markus' next question. So I explained one way I have heard God respond to me has been through other people and that God makes me aware that what is being said is from Him. Pretty soon Markus was distracted by a friend again and was off running around the house but I was left to think about our small conversation.

The past few weeks have brought me to a place of dependence on the Lord. A place that I got to only through some very challenging circumstances in my life. I was brought to the point of asking God to get me through the next hour of the day and to give me wisdom to make it through the next few minutes or the next few decisions. Each time I would get to a place of praying "God, I don't know how to handle this anymore, it is too much for me to handle. I can't see if I am wrong or right, I can't see if my emotions are healthy or not etc...," the Lord would bring someone into my life to offer encouragement or to challenge me. I wish I could share with you the details of the conversations because I know if you saw them you would be able to rejoice with me in the great faithfulness of the Lord.

I have had conversations with someone from a church that I was cynical about and the Lord highlighted how it was from Him and how I have been too quickly coming to conclusions about people and churches. He spoke through an almost stranger at a party that ended up turning into over an hour long conversation and gave me the ability to get through the next day. Oh the people and circumstances I have seen the Lord use in my life over the past couple of weeks have redeemed so many wrong views I have had. Even sermons by Pastors that I wouldn't normally listen to. There are times that I feel like God is making it TOO easy to follow Him. I know He knows what a fragile place I have been in and I know He knows just how much encouragement I need in my weak state and I am so grateful!

I was talking to a sister in the Lord the other day and the only way I could describe it is "I have never been so empty and felt so full". May I not take this time for granted and may it forever form who God is making me to be.

Oh Markus, I pray that one day, that you too will realize God can answer when you talk to Him.